Just read a friend’s blog and realised how much She bares Her soul out in her posts. So many things I can relate to, so much so I wonder if we’re really that similar, or if people all think of themselves in the same way, in some point of their lives?

Yet for me, this is a channel for me to vent my frustrations, things that I probably look back at and laugh at – how was I so childish then? Yet it still holds an element of truth that I cannot take away. Probably that is in smaller magnitude than I make it sound, or is it really? Maybe I am just playing games with you all here, making myself sound like I’m okay when really I’m not. Or am I?

Random thoughts to get me through the day, while I attempt to study (more productively).

“I met her,
We talked,

It was epic.
The sun came up,
Reality set in…
THIS is reality.” – TVD Season 1 Episode 2


Black Friday

Well they say be careful on Friday the 13th but I say we be careful when it’s Friday the 26th (cos 13 x 2).

It’s Double the Trouble, yo. 

The day started off really bad, with me sulking about our 13th month (how about that, another 13! :O) anniversary being nothing short of plain nothingness. The boy had food poisoning a few days before and basically he had quite a lack of appetite for food, and me. So we barely met up for an hour during our 13th month and while some may say, “well after the first year you don’t quite count by the month anymore”, I am a hopeless romantic and would die for even a little surprise. Or even the words “happy monthsary” would have done it. Oh well. I have to stop having any expectations or I will just die of unhappiness sooner or later. 

Yet I am pretty worried about this lack of spark. Only one year into our relationship and we are already at such a mellow stage. What happened to young love, to excitement, spontaneity, romance? If he were slightly more of a romantic I would definitely do things for him, make him stuff, cards, just to make him happy. But since we’re at this stage where he is hopeless at this kind of stuff, I don’t even want to start. Because if I give too much without receiving it bloody hurts. 

On to the next curse of this Doubly Black Friday, my rabbit just had to start pissing and pooping all over my room!!!!! I was so annoyed at that but it wasn’t really her fault, the day before I was busy the whole time so she didn’t get much play time out of her cage so I guess she vented her frustrations in that manner. 😦 Today she’s still pooping and peeing all over though, but already it’s much less. Let’s hope she keeps up the good behaviour before my parents are back from their holiday in Australia.

Nevertheless, I had a good day at dance and we managed to finish piecing our entire item together! 


Headed to Halloween Horror Night at USS at night and I swear, please DON’t ever let me spend such ridiculous amounts of money on that event or any such related events, EVER. PLEASE. Don’t get me wrong, it was a fantastic event, the ghosts were really good at what they did, but I was so scared I didn’t want to queue for any of the haunted houses after the first one (there were three). Anyway the queue was monstrous, we had to wait almost 2 hours for the first haunted house. We did however manage to catch a few shows (Monster Rock & the Shrek 4D Adventure). Those were adventure enough for me, thank you very much. Can’t wait for our next visit to USS again though! I love roller coasters. 😀

At that point I was really thankful for the boy who sweetly told me it was okay if we didn’t visit the other haunted houses because he only agreed to go for my sake anyway (though we, or rather I, had to spend a whooping $96 for the two tickets). So enough of Black Fridays, I’d say the Friday ended pretty well (and fast).

I can’t believe another weekend is zooming past. 😦 Boohoo.

Sociology and Depression

Just completed two completely crappy and nonsensical essays for my midterm. I major in Sociology.

A lot of people ask me what I want to be when I graduate with a B.A. in Sociology. Honestly, I don’t know, but if you were to ask me about my interest, I’m interested in mass media, in particular broadcast and advertising. For now, though, I’m stuck with studying Sociology and boy, is it depressing.

  1. I can barely understand the words because the vocabulary used is out of this world
  2. I am basically studying about how much the world sucks and how much we’re stuck in this world, and even though it really sucks we can’t do anything about it to make our lives better
  3. We think we have choices, but actually we don’t. We’ve been conditioned since we were born to choose what we choose to choose (I know right. INCEPTION TTM)


Well sure, our lives are way better than in the past when there was slavery and war (not that they don’t still exist, but perhaps on a smaller scale) but in the world today, poverty and corruption is more widespread than ever.

I think studying all these gives me a fresh perception on life. And it’s affecting me more than I would’ve liked. I’m completely LOST as to what I should be doing in life. Should I follow everyone else in this iron cage of bureaucracy or should I pursue something different? If I do the former I’ll be depressed, but if I follow my heart and do the latter, I will die. Literally. There’s no way I can survive in society the way it is today.

Why do we socialize and make friends? Why do we find it so tiring to sustain those friendships? Are they really worth so much?


Friends are the only way we can ever survive this depressing world. That’s why I need to go back to being the perky me and keep my friends close to me. 🙂